missing it

A graveyard of buried memories.

That's what it felt like to eat lunch today at PA outside on the grass during my break.. the same spot i sat with my friends for three years.. but i was the only one there. It was sad. Memories are everywhere on campus. At every corner. At every turn. On every bench. In every hallway. It was like I saw the past three years flash past me. They were good years. The best of my life. But they're over now, and I have to move on. I just wish it wasn't this hard. Yes, I very excited for the future. Yes, I just want to run out into the world with my arms outstretched, just waiting to see everything and meet new people and learn new things. I'm ready to move on to a new chapter. It's just that some days it's hard to turn these pages, because the story was so so so good. So good. But I'll always have that part of the story with me. I'll never forget.

all that skate summer

I really wish I could go to Korea right now. Pretty much the best skating show ever is there this weekend! And wow... the 3 best skaters of all time are there together. :) Me? Wish I was there.

i'm holding it out to you

Sometimes the night was beautiful

Sometimes the sky was so far away

Sometimes it seemed to stoop so close

You could touch it but your heart would break

Sometimes the morning came too soon

Sometimes the day could be so hot

There was so much left to do

But so much You'd already done

One star in the night had been lit for me

And on this road to righteousness

Sometimes the climb can be so steep

I may falter in my steps

But never beyond Your reach

I wonder

I wonder what it would have been like to be your friend.

I wonder how I can know you so well.

I wonder what could make you notice.

I wonder what we could have had.

I wonder if it's too late.

I wonder if you know how perfectly we fit.

I wonder if I'm wrong about this.

I wonder what you think.

I wonder if this isn't the end.

I wonder if I'll ever forget the times we've had. I don't think so.

Tell me it's not futile to believe.

a sweet escape

As I sit here on the balcony at Casa Loma, I feel completely peaceful and carefree. Grad is over. Highschool is finished. My path for September is set. It's summer - a magical time when there seems to be no boundaries in life. Summer is the time to follow your heart and not look back. A time to not dwell on the past, but enjoy the present and look forward to the future.

I can't believe a year has past since the last time I was here. Everything here seems the same, yet everything is different as well. I'm beginning a new chapter of my life and this summer is only the beginning. When I think of everything that's happened this year, I feel blessed and yet amazed at how time can go by so quickly. It seems like just yesterday I said good bye to Casa Loma in 2009, and yet here I am again. I've experienced so much and changed so much in a year. I think of the Olympics, senior year, grad, and developing new friendships. I think of God, and how much He's taught me this year and how much more He's drawn me to Himself. I'm so thankful for this. I feel almost guilty for the incredible blessings He's given me. But I just want to use them for His glory.

In one of my favorite places in the world, I say I wouldn't change anything about this week.

closest Friend

"And you come like the morning

Without warning, You're there.

And You speak to me,

The words that set me free.

Oh how I long to be, more like You.

And You stay so close to me,

Like my closest Friend.

And there's no earthly love like this,

For this knows no end.

And it's no dream I dream, no fantasy.

For I have touched your heart oh God,

And You have touched me.

Now my blind eyes can see.

And there's no other one like You,

Oh You're my All in All.

You're my King,

the Song in my heart I long to sing

I will always hold to the truth,

Always run to You,

And I'll always run to the Truth,

Always wait for You,

And You come to me, like the morning,

Without warning, You're there."