i'm holding it out to you

Sometimes the night was beautiful

Sometimes the sky was so far away

Sometimes it seemed to stoop so close

You could touch it but your heart would break

Sometimes the morning came too soon

Sometimes the day could be so hot

There was so much left to do

But so much You'd already done

One star in the night had been lit for me

And on this road to righteousness

Sometimes the climb can be so steep

I may falter in my steps

But never beyond Your reach

I wonder

I wonder what it would have been like to be your friend.

I wonder how I can know you so well.

I wonder what could make you notice.

I wonder what we could have had.

I wonder if it's too late.

I wonder if you know how perfectly we fit.

I wonder if I'm wrong about this.

I wonder what you think.

I wonder if this isn't the end.

I wonder if I'll ever forget the times we've had. I don't think so.

Tell me it's not futile to believe.

a sweet escape

As I sit here on the balcony at Casa Loma, I feel completely peaceful and carefree. Grad is over. Highschool is finished. My path for September is set. It's summer - a magical time when there seems to be no boundaries in life. Summer is the time to follow your heart and not look back. A time to not dwell on the past, but enjoy the present and look forward to the future.

I can't believe a year has past since the last time I was here. Everything here seems the same, yet everything is different as well. I'm beginning a new chapter of my life and this summer is only the beginning. When I think of everything that's happened this year, I feel blessed and yet amazed at how time can go by so quickly. It seems like just yesterday I said good bye to Casa Loma in 2009, and yet here I am again. I've experienced so much and changed so much in a year. I think of the Olympics, senior year, grad, and developing new friendships. I think of God, and how much He's taught me this year and how much more He's drawn me to Himself. I'm so thankful for this. I feel almost guilty for the incredible blessings He's given me. But I just want to use them for His glory.

In one of my favorite places in the world, I say I wouldn't change anything about this week.

closest Friend

"And you come like the morning

Without warning, You're there.

And You speak to me,

The words that set me free.

Oh how I long to be, more like You.

And You stay so close to me,

Like my closest Friend.

And there's no earthly love like this,

For this knows no end.

And it's no dream I dream, no fantasy.

For I have touched your heart oh God,

And You have touched me.

Now my blind eyes can see.

And there's no other one like You,

Oh You're my All in All.

You're my King,

the Song in my heart I long to sing

I will always hold to the truth,

Always run to You,

And I'll always run to the Truth,

Always wait for You,

And You come to me, like the morning,

Without warning, You're there."

bestfriend.

You're there for me at any hour.

No matter what happens or what distance separates us, our friendship remains.

You finish my sentences and speak what's on my mind.

I'm only me when I'm with you.

I can never thank you enough.

Those moments we've shared - I could never replace.

Laughing, crying, living life to the fullest - that's what friends are for.

We'll face the future together.

Together we'll remain,

Always a call away.

Then. Now. Always.

all the times we had together

It's over. 3 years of growing, tears, laughter, learning, transforming, achieving, and simply having the time of my life. How can leave this place? It's here that I met my dearest friends in the world. It's here that I met my Savior. It's here that I learned so much. It's hear that I found myself. It's hard sometimes to imagine my life without it. But I know that when this chapter of my life closes, I'll still be taking pieces of the last chapter with me. The people that mean so much to me, the lessons I've learned, the precious memories I have - they'll be in my heart forever and I won't ever let them go. They're a part of who I am, and nothing can change that.

These 3 years will be in my heart forever. I'll never forget.

I'll never forget any of you. You're half of who I am.

I know that I'm in Your hands and You're already mapping out a path for me. I know You have something amazing waiting for me.

Deep breath. I can do this. I've done it. All I have to do is walk across the stage and into the future.

summer's in the air

The air feels so warm now, and it really feels like summer is on the horizon. Only 2 1/2 months of high school left. I can't believe it. And the off season has begun. I wonder what changes will happen over the next few months? Some things are certain -- Mao and Mirai are staying. Yuna - I hope you continue to compete, because you're still so young and can improve even more and leave a lasting legacy. I really hope you continues on to 2014!! Joannie - I don't think she'll stay until Sochi, but I hope she continues to compete for the next few seasons. It would be great if she could medal at worlds a few more times and.. maybe become world champion?? Anything's possible =) And Sasha.. I hope she continues to compete. At nationals, we got a taste of her new programs, but it really felt like she didn't do them justice. I really think Sasha could win worlds if she continued to train and compete. I really think she could. Not winning either worlds or the Olympics is really too bad considering how talented she is and what a legacy she has. And... what new faces will emerge to peak in 2014? Christina Gao? Min Jung Kwak? Or someone we've never heard of yet?
Who knows what will happen? But I'm crossing my fingers =)